Trading: A journey of self discovery?

Published on Sunday May 2nd, 2010 at 06:57PM by iwogar

I had to write about this because I’m amazed at how much I’ve discovered about myself since I started trading in July last year. For example, I now know that I’ll rather move stops, and risk loosing $100 to prove that I’m right, than accept that I’m wrong, cut my losses, loose $10 and move on. Michael Douglas hit it on the head when he said a trader has to overcome our naturally tendency to be always right and not to loose money in order to be successful. If like me you have perfectionist tendencies, or have built a career in the exact sciences, you’ve probably worked through a ton of frustration or given up on trading. I’m gradually learning trading is for probability thinkers, not perfectionists.I thought I was risk taker, adventurous ... yeah right! I sweat buckets over trades that risk no more than I’ll spend on a decent lunch! Virtually all my trading errors can be traced to the fact that I did not fully accept the risk involved in the trade. Over the last month, I decided not to put on a trade until I’m completely at ease with the amount at risk. It’s worked wonders for my trades.Don’t get me started on patience!! After completing my studies at babypips and other related sources I felt I was ready to go and saw demo trading as a waste of my time. Unfortunately, my first few trades were winners, yes, that’s the worst thing that happened to me. I felt invincible and was dreaming of the millions to be made, the vast potential … then reality stuck. A few losers, nah, just an aberration, more losers, got to make up lost funds, then more losers, and the psychological damage was done along with a blown account. I tried all the fast time frames because I did not have the patience to wait for trade setups to evolve over larger time frames. Now, I truly believe that the amount of money a trader makes in the LONG RUN is directly proportional to the time frame he trades. I really love the time the larger timeframes give me to strategize. I’m starting to think the adages “easy come easy goes” and “quick money doesn’t last” probably applies to trading.I used to pride myself in not having an addictive personality, until I encountered trading. Like all addicts, the addict is the last person to accept his addiction. I thought about trading all day, dreamt about it at night, woke up late to adjust trade positions, felt I was missing out when I was not looking at charts, forced trades to relieve boredom, if that’s not addiction, I don’t know what is … Hey guys, I’m Ikori and I’m a trade-aholic :-)… the healing begins. Now, I try to maintain a balance. Schedule trading alongside other healthy activities with a focus on meeting the needs of others. It’s interesting how when you help others solve their problems your problems get sorted out somehow.Focusing on results, rather than the process. This is a bigie! Had to learn to plan the trade, trade the plan and live with the results. I had the tendency to judge my performance on short term P/L results rather than my adherence to the trading plan. I believe this shift in thinking is key to my success in trading. No one can control short term profitability due to market irregularities, but we can all control our execution of the trading plan. Market knowledge will provide you with the basics, but self control will make you a winner. Well executed plans over time will generate profits. Perfectionists should seek perfection in execution, regardless of results.Trading, without a doubt, is the most difficult endeavour I’ve ever undertaken. I’m still yet to have a profitable month (don’t be deceived by my pip count, there are a bunch of revenge trades and scalps I did not bother recording) but I believe I’m turning the corner.Now that I’ve exorcised myself, looking forward to a profitable May!
  • 7 comments
  • Go to clifffy's profile

    On Sunday May 2nd, 2010 at 08:59PM by clifffy -

    Woot woot, and hear hear.... weel written and awesome points. By the way...Hi Ikori, I'm Garry and I’m a trade-aholic too.. It's been 30 days since my last revenge / boredom / unplanned trade.
  • Go to keicadelina's profile

    On Monday May 3rd, 2010 at 03:28AM by keicadelina -

    This is such an interesting post and I could totally relate! Btw, Garry and Ikori, if you feel like you're being too hooked on trading, I suggest you check out this article (http://www.winnersedgetrading.com/trade-of-the-day/are-you-addicted-to-forex-trading-). I must admit, I'm a bit guilty on a few points too, haha!
  • Go to virgiliolayug's profile

    On Monday May 3rd, 2010 at 06:38AM by virgiliolayug -

    For example, I now know that I’ll rather move stops, and risk loosing $100 to prove that I’m right, than accept that I’m wrong, cut my losses, loose $10 and move on. Michael Douglas hit it on the head when he said a trader has to overcome our naturally tendency to be always right and not to loose money in order to be successful. Good points. I just look at losses as the costs of business. If I'm wrong, I'm wrong, but when I'm right, I try to maximize it as much as I can. As I always say, it don't matter how often you're right or wrong - what matters is how you react and handle your trade when you are correct!
  • Go to Cyclopip's profile

    On Monday May 3rd, 2010 at 07:37AM by Cyclopip -

    It's good to see that you are being honest with yourself. I love how you pointed out that as traders, we should be focusing in on the process more than the results. If we follow our trading plans, the good results will follow.Good luck in your future trades!
  • Go to iwogar's profile

    On Monday May 3rd, 2010 at 10:59AM by iwogar -

    Thanks for the comments guys, much appreciated. Garry, I see you caught the joke :-) happy trading everyone!
  • Go to lukenn's profile

    On Monday May 17th, 2010 at 11:17AM by lukenn -

    Just stumbled on this post, yes 2 weeks late :) I can relate to this post completely. I've been doing it for a few months now, and am guilt of most, if not all of it. I especially like the part about the price of a decent lunch. I'm currently trading on a micro account, and (still) feel like kicking my dog if I lose USD$1.00 !!I've to get around the patience thing, too. Sometimes I make a mistake by going in 1 candle too early, instead of waiting for a clear signal, and it turns around on me. Other times, it rewards my bad behavior with a +40 pip gain. Its probably somewhat related to your thought of trading not being an exact science. You don't necessarily get punished for bad behavior, but sometimes even get rewarded for it !
  • Go to turkeytrader's profile

    On Sunday June 6th, 2010 at 03:40PM by turkeytrader -

    This is so great. Been there, still constantly learning the skill of self control. Trading is like all things in life, be honest with yourself, have balance, make good decisions with the proper dose of risk vs reward, never let any endeavor let you forget what is important, love your family not your positions, and know yourself, your strengths and your pitfalls. Learning to trade has helped me in other areas of my life. I am more honest with myself in all things. I find playing a competitive sport helps my mindset. I also do not sit in front of the screen all day every day. Some days I do feel the need to watch it but often I will wait for my set up, take the trade, set my stops and then go do something healthy. This just works for me and I know myself but may not work for someone else. I wish you great skill in your journey. You are well on your way.

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